This story is about a girl named Mary.  Mary is my friend.  Mary is currently single, but going on dates.  Now Mary and I have known one another for over two decades.  She and I have traveled to the depths of the dating world together and been single to sulk our relationship losses.  We’ve watched every chic flick on how to be good at being a strong but super cool, chill girl.  (Come, on!)  Every woman in the world is trying to be a good wife, partner, girlfriend, dating person, or single chic.  And being “good” is so subjective.

Then we are given dating advice in Cosmopolitan, or told to be rude by outlandish books;  Why Men Love Bitches.  All the information becomes conflicting and overwhelming.   We are inundated with friends opinions and strangers judgements.  We are overthinking, over-trying, and overdoing.

So, lets get back to Mary’s story.  She had been single before and in other relationships before.  Ones that worked and ones that didn’t.  Ones that ended cordially with a hand shake and ones that ended tragically with cheating.  She has played the field, given up dating to pursue a career and come back around again.  Before she began dating again she saw a counselor.  She worked on some fears, then after another year, she got back out there.  She was not active in pursuing men, but she was attracting good and decent men who wanted to take her out.  She was confident, happy, and fun. She had her contagious energy back that she had before her heartbreak.  But it took Mary time to get there.  Before that she laid on the couch with me and cried, she asked for hugs and she figured out what she wanted.  She rediscovered who she was.

Then something happened.  Mary met someone.  She met someone she really liked.   She was overwhelmed by trying to remember the rules to dating because she actually liked this guy.  She thought about texting in 3 days instead of hours; how to keep him interested; when to introduce him to her friends; when he should meet her family; was she actually ready for a real relationship; what if he rejected her; what if she needed to have multiple people to date at the same time while not making him jealous, while keeping him interested, while trying to stand on her head while sitting in a chair and juggling 4 balls in the air while playing guitar and making dinner for 12 people…….. Mary was having overwhelming feelings and emotions of doubt.  She just had to remember, it’s going to be ok.  She had to remember what she wanted and not digress to the conflicting information.  She had to calm her fears, anxieties, and doubt.

She had to go back and remember what she had learned.  She learned that just because she grew from an experience that she could not control future situations and that there was no promise she wouldn’t be hurt again. She had to let go of her need to control and she had to be vulnerable.  My point is……we ebb and flow in all stages of dating and relationships.  Relax. Breath. Stop trying to figure it out and enjoy the journey.

Why does it all have to be so complicated?  We get so much conflicting information from so many avenues and it keeps us from developing our genuine selves.  It prolongs the confusion and chaos.   Mary has no idea how to be single.  She has no idea how to date or how to be in a relationship.  Not the “right way”, at least, whatever that means.  But who does?  We are all sort of the blind leading the blind.  This is messy stuff.  This is complicated stuff.  We have to give ourselves room to breath and grow.  We are making it up as we go, learning from the past, and taking notes for the future.  There is no right way to date or right way to be single.  The best you can hope for is good and supportive friends that hang in there with you along the way.  My point is……Relax. Breath. Stop trying to figure it out and enjoy the journey, single or not.